Behold the glands of St. Anthony, you cranky Donekis.

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I've had a very overwhelming week, quite unexpectedly.

I won that award that I was nominated for,

best presenter at the

the Grierson documentary awards over in England.

So the week has been overwhelming because I've been exposed to quite a

large amount of external approval and that's something I have to be incredibly mindful of

because that amount of external approval, winning a giant award and lots of people contacting me to congratulate me,

it's wonderful and fantastic and I'm very grateful for it.

But it's like a drug.

It's cocaine.

It's sweets.

It's bobees.

I just have to be cautious that I don't allow external validation to become, to feed my self-worth and my self-esteem.

Because when that happens, when my identity and self-worth becomes tied with an achievement,

I'm a good person now. I'm valuable now because

people are telling me I'm valuable. I have worth because people are telling me I'm worthy.

And then I start to believe it. Then I become scared of losing it. Because to lose it means that I don't have worth as a human being, which is impossible.

So this week I'm focused on reminding myself of my intrinsic worth.

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