Hello, how are you? Do you smell? I smell. How is your personal hygiene going? I can tell

you that my hands are very clean and the rest of my body and my hair are not. I'm just

covered in a film of dirt. It's a sad realization when you're in your 30s and it's only then

that you learn everything you ever said about wanting to dress up and be clean and look

good was, you know, for yourself, not for other people. What bullshit? It was all for

you guys and I didn't know that until now because I have left myself as the unpollished

herd. But I do think that I'm managing to start to fathom how long this is going to go

on now and I'm just trying to find whatever piece I can with this and and recognize that

we have no control and it's okay to relinquish that control and try to step away from

the news and try and step away from people who are making you feel anxious and just try

to use this moment as a pause for self-reflection and I don't mean that in some sort of woo-woo

bullshit annoying way. I mean, some people are going to be working on their fucking

abs and that's fine, that's their choice. But some people like myself, for example,

are still in need of this pause where I'm not able to be distracted by life and stress

and and I'm not able to escape by hanging out with my friends and going out to pubs and

bars and restaurants. I'm stuck inside my own brain and it's allowing me a moment for,

you know, these painful feelings to surface and rather than push them away, which I've

often done before because I've been busy, I now have a moment to as unsettling as it can

be at times, just investigate those feelings and figure out what it is that I need and could

need to and could do differently. And so I wonder if that's something that you're also

doing and I hope that this podcast continues to be a part of that journey where either you

learn things about other people or learn things about yourselves. And there's some people

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