Hello and welcome to another episode of I Way with Jameeda Jamal.

A podcast against shame. That's the last time I'm going to say this this year.

We did it guys. We fucking did it. We're still alive. It's by the skin of our teeth. I mean, I had a blood test taken

of like a very, very thorough blood test recently. And the blood test basically just said that my body

is absolutely fucked, totally, totally, reparably, but totally fucked and depleted. And I blame this

fucking year. So I'm excited for it to be over. I'm already taking good care of myself. I'm not waiting

until the new year. I am. I'm being, that's weird. Even at my age, even with my old sensible ear

brain, I still take New Year's quite seriously in that I, I know it's an arbitrary day. It doesn't

mean anything. It's just another day. But for some reason, there's something about New Year's

specifically birthdays. I mean, fuck all like Valentine's Day, don't fuck all, but New Year's Eve.

I take so seriously and it has such a huge impact on me. And in the weeks leading up to I really

think not only about the following year, but like what kind of loose ends I need to tie up this year?

What promises did I make last New Year's Eve that I need to make sure I've kept this year? And some

of that meant having some really fucking hard conversations with friends or family members, writing

some difficult text messages, writing kind messages, you know, to people that I'd had friction with

and making sure that I really genuinely let that shit go. Not, not forgave, but let that shit go

and moved on from it because I just don't want to like soak in the fucking like poison of shit

that they've created. I have investigated my own behaviors. I've investigated what I don't like

and do like about the behaviors of others. I figured out shit that I need to get better at and I think I've

I think I'm leaving this year a better person than how I started. I think a lot of us have learned

a lot this year. It's just been it's been a lot. It's come at a price all of it. But I've loved this

year with you. You've been great. You've been so fucking thoughtful and interesting. And thanks

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