Pinch of Vincent, you wrinkly Phillips.

Welcome to the Blind Buy podcast.

As I record this right now,

it's Tuesday the 5th of November,

which means I'm going to go to bed tonight

and then I get to wake up in the morning and find out

who the new president of America is.

I'm not looking forward to that.

I'm not looking forward to waking up tomorrow morning

and reaching from my phone to find out.

It's an awful feeling.

I remember it from 2016. I remember it from 2016.

I remember it from 2020.

That used to not be a feature of my life.

I used to not wake up in the morning, pick up a phone, and then feel terrified to read the news.

What first triggered that fear?

January 2016, woke up, picked up my phone. David Bowie's dead. Out of nowhere, David Bowie's dead. Big shock, wasn't expecting

it. Massive Bowie fan. One of those artists were, where I could say that his music saved my life.

And what I mean by that is when I was a teenager and I'd be going through bouts of severe depression

or severe anxiety and I wouldn't have had the emotional maturity or tools to help myself.

I also happened to be properly rediscovering the music of David Bowie. I knew Bowie's music from my childhood because my brothers were listening to it. But when I was like 17, once every two months, I'd save up 25 euros and I'd buy a new David Bowie album and CD and only listen to that.

And that gave me a feeling of purpose, meaning and allowed me to connect with my emotions.

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