This is a Global Player Original podcast.

Welcome to your Dirty Motherpucker Quickie.

This is your podcasting bit on the side with me, Anna White House.

And my best mate, Polly Hazewood in The House.

I want to talk about Mylene, Miss Carriage and Me, your documentary. It hit me so hard. Do you know

what? I have to be really frank with you. I was meant to come to the

launch of it and I couldn't. And that's not because of something that's in my diary. I meant to,

I wanted to and I wanted to support you. And I'm being really honest, I couldn't because I just

wasn't ready to almost see someone I feel a lot for talking about the things I knew would completely

trigger me and I've had to put up boundaries around that for myself.

And so first of all, I want to say sorry as a friend that I wasn't there.

And that wasn't that I didn't want to support you.

But I've only just recently been able to watch it.

And you said things in that documentary that I've never seen heard, the way that

you and Simon spoke, I think the other side of the male side of this, talking about it

openly with a man's voice, it's always us, isn't it, talking about the trauma, missed miscarriage,

for example, you know, people don't talk about that. But did you not find doing that documentary one of the hardest things you have done in your career?

Yes.

It looked like it was.

Yeah.

It was like a mangle.

It was really hard because I think that the rest of the time I can put a barrier up.

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