Your fitness journey, by the way, like it's kind of interesting how I was honestly shocked to see even commenting on my channel.

Like I guess we do have overlap with drugs, but in terms of like what's, have you become more interested in it recently in terms of general fitness and like.

Yeah, I stopped giving a fuck and now I care.

So it's funny. We're talking about these experiences with Connor Murphy,

people like where it takes them to the point where they don't give a shit about anything.

And you're like getting up there.

I'm getting up there.

Yeah, because I've noticed you've been posting like progress photos on your Instagram and stuff.

And I'm like, yeah, so like obviously you do care to some extent about your progression and whatnot.

I went from not giving a shit to caring. So it's having an opposite effect on me.

Okay. That just goes to show that you can not, you know, it's not like it's always downwards in the

escalation of. So this is hard to explain. So what happened with me was there's been a progression to it.

So initially, I cared about my looks.

I had these really intense experiences.

And kind of like Connor Murphy, they actually did contribute to me not giving a shit.

But then you come full circle.

And then it's like everything starts to really click in the sense where, I don't to describe this more beyond just why if you're only alive

in this body one time why would I not want to have my best experience possible right it's like

the psychedelics show you that it's like yeah you're all you might be everything and nothing

and all of this

shit. But literally right now, you are you. And there's nothing I can do to not be me. Yeah.

And if I'm going to be me, I want to be the best version of me. And even if it's superficial,

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