Hi friends and welcome to the papaya podcast. I'm your hostess, Try and Hermostas, Sarah Nicole,

and each week I'm going to be dishing out some sweetness mixed in with some seeds of wisdom or

something like that. So get ready to get inspired, get candid, get real, because we are all in this digital

space together. Okay, I guess this is my pilot episode. This is going to be the first one that you

listen to if you're new. And first of all, thanks for being here. Second of all, I have no

idea what the heck I'm doing. So just brace yourself.

This is not going to be a smooth, easy, highly produced road that we're on. It is going to be very realistic to what is legit happening, which is me sitting on my living room couch with a microphone with a cold cup of coffee and a, I don't know, what is that,

everything but the bagel spice all over my coffee table. So, like, whatever. It's fine. But I really want

you to kind of understand how it all came about. Why the heck are we doing a podcast? And

why did it take so long? So, long story short, I'm a professional podcast guest. I am so great

at being a guest on other people's podcasts. And I don't say that like pridefully. I was just

asked on a few of them and I really loved being on podcast. I really love sitting, being interviewed. And I remember at one point, someone asked me, you know, would you rather be interviewed or would you rather be the interviewer? And I was like, oh, I'd much rather be the interviewer than I can ask all the questions that I want. And then people started to say, well, why aren't you doing a podcast? And I was like, well, I don't know.

That doesn't, that's not what I do. I do the other things. I do the Instagram and I do the Facebook and I do that stuff. So I don't really know how to do a podcast. And I had some friends

be like, yeah, but you can learn. You can do this. And it freaked me out. But I kind of decided I was going to

listen. I was going to have a season of listening to my audience, to my community, to my people,

to my friends who were saying, started a dang podcast, even if I didn't really see that for

myself yet. And I told myself that the year of 2019 was going to be a year of listening. It wasn't going to be a year of knowing what I was doing. 2019 was going to be a year of listening it wasn't going to

be a year of knowing what I was doing it was going to be a year of sitting back and being guided

being guided not only by my own inner voice but by the voices of others that were lifting me up

and this was a big one so to be completely honest with you I have a hundred percent imposter syndrome when it comes to having a podcast.

I think with their growing popularity, it feels like one of those things were like, who am I?

And what should I be doing this for?

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