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This is terrible. This feels terrible.

This feels terrible. I'm your host, Aaron McClureball. I'm your host, Aaron McClurember Hello, welcome to This Feels Terrible.

I'm your host, Erin McGothy.

This is your one-stop podcast about feelings, vulnerability,

my ongoing process to become a better human being and to understand relationships better.

I, uh, you know, it's great.

What is a highlight to my week truly is getting a package in the mail from clubbw.com.

That's right.

I'm a member of Clubbw and you can be to go to clubbw.com, enter in the

password, the password, sure, I'm going to call it a password or a promo code. This feels terrible

at checkout. You get $20 off the first month and you get delicious wines. I just got three wines in the mail that are

really fantastic. My favorite one being Scarlet Smack because it has a beautiful label with

lips and the lips are biting. There's some bottom lip biting action. And it reminds me of,

uh, the opening of Rocky Horror. And it makes me feel nostalgic for the time when I saw

Rocky Horror for the first time and was so blown away by those lips. How the hell are you guys?

Uh, I'm doing okay. Um, I want to say I'm doing

much better. I'm doing great. I'm doing, you know when like there's not, I mean,

there's nothing things, things on paper are going great for me. Things are great. I've had a,

I've had a hard year. I've had a year of transition. And I think that

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