If you watch the music video for the song Drive by the Cars, you see a decades-long relationship just beginning between the lead singer of the band and the model who stars in the video.

This isn't a video, by the way. It's a podcast. It's DePresh Mode. I'm John Moe. I'm glad you're here.

Paulina Porzkova met Rick O'Casek on that video shoot and then later married him.

And people couldn't believe it.

She was a supermodel.

Magazine covers all over the world.

He was unusual looking.

It was like the head cheerleader dating a guy from the AV club.

People just couldn't understand it.

When a newspaper in New York featured a picture of the two of them together, the headline read,

Beauty and the Beast. And he said to her,

It's okay, honey. I don't think you're a beast. And of course, outside of the people involved,

who someone loves is their own business. And people marry for other reasons, better reasons

than physical appearance. But what people didn't know, what Paulina

did not even recognize for some time, was that Rick O'Casek was awfully similar in many ways to

Paulina's estranged father. It's one of many insights she's been sharing lately, opening up about

herself on Instagram, where she has nearly a million

followers, and in a new memoir, no filter, the good, the bad, and the beautiful.

Polina tells stories of a really complicated and painful childhood, persistent anxiety and panic

attacks, exploitation in the modeling world, and her marriage to Rick O'Casek.

He died in 2019 while the two were separated and heading for divorce, and she later discovered

that she had been cut out of his will entirely. I don't know if you assume the life of a

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