So tonight is about the inner credit, which none of you will know anything about that

in our judge and jury, the inner voice that either reminds us of our cringe-worthy moments in life where we

failed or catastrophizes bad outcomes or especially compares us against imaginary they, them, who are doing better than us,

who are always confident and always happy while we are anxious and sometimes depressed.

The inner critic are the messages we internalized, starting with the earliest socializing messages we receive from our parents,

the messages that the parents verbalized to us as a way to present some form of guidance of behavior,

like don't throw things at your sister or brother, don't pull the cat's tail, don't

belch in public, don down run down the hall don't you know eat the

cookie before you have your meal all that stuff, the guiding, regulating, instructive information, and children, their

sole job is to manage their relationship with their caretakers.

That's how they say a lot.

So when we're alone as children without the caretaker, the child around two or three starts a practice of what's known as

private speech. Private speech is words that the child says aloud but is not

really directing those words to an adult.

The child is simply regulating itself by speaking their guidance aloud.

So the child will tell itself, don't eat the cookie, don't run down the hall, don't, you know, do this,

down to that, and then it's replicating the words that the mother or father say to it. And then eventually over time

the private speech becomes internal speech. The child doesn't bother saying it aloud. It just says it in its mind and it becomes

inner chatter, thought. So the formation of human thought starts in social speech with other people that we're simply repeating.

And yet, interestingly enough, as we move through life as adults, we tend to take all of our thoughts as mine.

We don't realize that they all have their essential,

we can trace them back into the utterances of things

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