Hey, this is Leo for actualized.org, and I want to talk about your greatest demon.

And by extension, also my greatest demon as an example that we can generalize here across many different cases. So what do I mean?

I think every one of us has at least one major demon that we're dealing with. Something that keeps plaguing us, something that keeps

haunting us from the past. What is that for me? For me what it was is

reconciling business and the concerns of business and trying to make a profit with business,

and reconciling that with upholding a higher value such as creativity or beauty and trying to get those two to reconcile.

Because when I got into my first career, which was game design, there was this big tension, at least in my mind,

between the fact that on the one hand I see these beautiful projects that I could be working on and creating.

If only I had the capital to do it, if only I had the capital to do it if only I had the autonomy to create a

freedom to go out there and do it if I only had the power so for me I always

felt like it was a real shame that there's this beauty out there that could be created, but the means to create it, you have to go and really dig around the muck to get the beauty out of it, you have to go in you have to deal with real life business matters

You have to deal with money problems scheduling problems

Hiring people firing, all that stuff that you don't want to deal with if you're a creative

artist, you just want to focus on like the beauty of your craft.

Well, you have to do it because you can't create the beauty unless you've got the funding for it, especially with games.

That's not something you can really do individually. It's something that you do in a large team environment.

So you need to really get the capital down and get the

business side down and the marketing side down and a lot of times what happens is

in that process the business side and the marketing side and the money actually

takes over and it's like the the value of beauty that you

were after in the first place it gets sacrificed and where it should be the

highest value and the money and the business and the

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