I'm back. After a month long retreat I'm back. Man, there's a lot to share. I had a lot of amazing experiences. I spent a lot of time integrating and mulling over the things that I've experienced and I want to share some of those with you.

This is going to be very kind of raw off-the-cuff intimate episode.

It's tricky to talk about some of these things, you see, I struggle, I struggle, it's a real struggle to communicate some of this levels of consciousness, some of these levels of consciousness that I've experienced. But anyways, here we go.

Before we get into it, though, I do need to issue a disclaimer here which is that I'm going to be talking about some

radical stuff. I'm talking about stuff now that I don't know how many humans on the planet have ever experienced.

I'm sure some have, but this is not well-known stuff, even within spiritual circles.

And I might be saying some things here

which contradict any kind of spiritual teacher

or master that you've heard teach you about Enlightenment Door Awakening and what these things are and about consciousness and what consciousness is capable of and about psychedelics and other such things. So just keep that in mind.

These were outrageous experiments in consciousness.

That's what they were.

And I just want to be authentic and true to my experiences.

And man, these experiences were so profound and paradigm shattering that I'm still reeling from them to some degree and still trying to wrap my mind around them and trying to understand their full implications.

The reason that it took me a while after my 30-day retreat to kind of come back and start to shoot videos again is because I needed

that time to integrate. I took a few weeks off just to decompress and to integrate and to come back into normal life

because and to come back into normal life because man this was some crazy stuff. So anyways, what happened?

So what I decided to do from the very outset with my retreat in March.

I basically decided to do 30 days of isolation, which was very convenient because most of us had to stay at home anyways with these

virus stay-at-home orders but I began my stay-at-home journey a little earlier than most of you

on the 1st of March.

And my intention from the very beginning

was not to meditate, because I've done plenty of meditation retreats

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