I saw him head back kind of mouth open. I just said to him, what's going on? And he's

like, nothing, nothing. And I'm like, Steph, are you using heroin? And he said, you don't

want to know. And I said, I already know.

This is last day, a new podcast from Lemonade Media about the things that are killing us.

And I'm your host, Stephanie Widdle's wax.

In your head you're saying, I'm not going to use, I'm not going to use, and then you use.

It was the most mystifying thing to me in my life, why I couldn't control my own behavior.

I'm sure you guys both noticed, just past someone cooking up heroin with a needle in their

mouth as we were walking over here between the fire department and the prison.

Sometimes we'll go for the same patient three or four or five times a day. They do everything

they can for them. They wake them back up, they get into the hospital and then they walk

back out.

We're trying to understand the why and the how of America's most massive epidemics by

zooming in on one person's story. More specifically, their last day. I don't know what on earth he

was thinking when he decided this was his next step in life. And I think for those of us

left behind, you're constantly trying to find out what could I have done differently.

This show is an attempt to figure that out. Our first season will be talking about opioids

because unfortunately it's the epidemic I know best. My little brother, Harris Whittles,

comedian and beloved human died of a heroin overdose in 2015.

He said, you're not going to believe this. I'm in rehab for shooting actual heroin and it

was just I couldn't believe it. I had I don't I mean, I don't know. I just said, oh my God,

I love you. And you know, we talked to policymakers, harm reductionists, addiction specialists, people

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