As a kid, there were two things I could always count on at my grandmother's house.

One, there was always something in the oven no matter the time of day.

And two, at Christmas, she would always make a special type of peanut butter cookie candy thing

that I have yet to have just like her since I was a kid. My grandmother lived in the

kitchen with eight kids of her own and goodness knows the ocean of grandkids. It was no wonder,

but I think she actually just loved having something ready for whenever someone dropped by unannounced.

But these cookies, going back to these cookies, years ago, like 15 or so, I asked everyone in the

family, what was the recipe? Was it ever written down? Who has it? Who did she show how to make these two?

And unfortunately, it was never written down. Nobody has it. And she just liked being in the kitchen.

So she kind of did it on her own. I've never had those cookies the way that my grandmother would make them. and it's only been in recent years that I even came across various recipes for them online.

And no matter the recipe, the ingredients, the website, the reviews, they're just not the same as hers.

Maybe it's because I was single digits in early teen years when having them

and they were just magical because they were grandmother's peanut butter penwills. And who doesn't

love magical yumminess in cookie form? And honestly, the fact that they were hers probably had something to do with it as well,

I'm sure.

Maybe it's the way that she always managed to get the perfect amount of peanut butter in

each roll and how she would bake them to perfection, but then she would place them in the

refrigerator to chill because they had to be cold, but then she would place them in the refrigerator to chill because

they had to be cold, but they were still so soft and what I would give to have a simple note card

with her handwriting on it, detailing what I've learned, them to be called as peanut butter

pinwills.

If you have a favorite recipe of your grandmother making these, please let me know.

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