Hello and welcome to this show. I don't know what it is because I'm not sure where I'm going to publish

this. Maybe everywhere. Maybe all my shows. I'm Thomas Smith and, okay, this is my second take. I recorded

for just 85 minutes straight. Just talked. Unusable. I mean, it would be usable if I had like 10 hours

to edit it, but I just don't.

So what I'm going to try to do is reset. You don't need to know any of this, really.

And I'm going to try to take things simpler. I'm going to try to not branch out too much.

But I am going to start with a little bit of personal stuff just about yesterday as I'm recording this right now,

because it might matter for where the votes are.

For me, it is Wednesday, November 6th at about 11 p.m. Pacific.

So yesterday was horrible. It was terrible for me. I have anxiety. I wouldn't say I have a generalized anxiety disorder necessarily. I'm not anxious like all the time or anything. But I do have like acute anxiety, like performance anxiety and around certain events, which I know a lot of people do. But mine really just makes me feel like I'm dying, which I think is

pretty common. But for those who don't have that, I'd be thankful. But yeah, yesterday I was dying.

I felt horrible, just sick and my head was killing me. You know, very quickly, it was obvious this

wasn't going well. So last night

was horrible. Was able to get to sleep at like 3 a.m. I think I slept until, I don't know, like 7 a.m.

Maybe if that. Even though I was, I'm so exhausted, I was exhausted. I got no sleep. I spent so much

time in anxiety, which really takes it out of you if you have dealt with that. I woke up at I got no sleep. I spent so much time and anxiety, which really takes

it out of you if you have dealt with that. I woke up at about 7 a.m. and my first thought was like,

I need to know what happened. I need to find out why this happened. And I've spent the better part

of an entire day hold up in my room with every piece of data

that I can find to figure out what happened here.

And here's why you should listen to me.

I'm not saying I'm the only person you should listen to, but here's why I think I'm worth

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