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Mental Illness Happy Hour

Native American Ellen Blackcloud

Mental Illness Happy Hour

Paul Gilmartin

Health & Fitness, Relationships, Society & Culture, Mental Health, Sexuality

4.8 β€’ 6.1K Ratings

πŸ—“οΈ 3 January 2020

⏱️ 136 minutes

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Summary

Ellen (a pseudonym) shares about shares about discrimination, growing up poor, living on a reservation, riding the line between native culture and "white people things" and tells her story of grooming and sexual abuse from her father, being "trapped" in her own bedroom for years to avoid him, and how getting sober herself was the catalyst for healing and forgiveness. She speaks about the open wounds that remain from generations of government mistreatment towards Native Americans and the stories of abuse, addiction, and violence that exist on native reservations today; and the need for healing and reconciliation for the trauma of the past. Support Our Sponsors! This episode is sponsored by BetterHelp online counseling. To get a free week go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental Must be 18. This episode is sponsored by EarlyBird CBD Products. For 20% off your first purchase go to www.EarlyBirdCBD.com/mental and use offer code mental. WAYS TO HELP THE PODCAST ______________________ Subscribe via iTunes and leave a review. It costs nothing. https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/mental-illness-happy-hour/id427377900?mt=2 β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€” Spread the word via social media. It costs nothing. Our website is www.mentalpod.com our FB is www.Facebook.com/mentalpod and our Twitter and Instagram are both @Mentalpod -------------------------------------------------------- Become a much-needed Patreon monthly-donor (with occasional rewards) for as little as $1/month at www.Patreon.com/mentalpod Become a one-time or monthly donor via Paypal or Zelle (make payment to [email protected]) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Try Our Sponsor’s Products/Services --------------------------------------------------- See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information. See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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0:00.0

Miss Fit toys.

0:02.0

Welcome to episode for 68 Happy New Year.

0:06.1

My name is Paul Gilmarten.

0:07.6

This is the Metal Inus Happy Hour.

0:09.9

Placed for honesty, but all the battles in our heads from medically diagnosed conditions

0:15.1

past traumas and sexual dysfunction to everyday compulsive negative thinking.

0:20.1

I'm not a therapist.

0:21.6

The show's not meant to be a substitute for professional mental counseling.

0:27.0

Did you survive the holidays?

0:33.0

You know what is even harder for me than the holidays is when the sun sets and the winter,

0:41.9

especially between Thanksgiving and Christmas when it's like four o'clock outside and especially

0:49.3

if it's cloudy.

0:51.3

It just feels like a physical representation of everything I've failed at in my life.

1:00.6

Especially if it's a day when I didn't get anything done, I slept too late, I didn't

1:07.2

eat enough, I'm back in bed two hours after I woke up.

1:13.3

It's just it, it, it, it feels like if death put on a show, this would be the lighting.

1:21.2

For death to make its entrance.

1:24.6

I'm so looking forward to the days getting getting longer.

1:29.0

I want to read an email that I got.

1:32.7

This was somebody writing in the reference to the episode with Gabby Dixon and they

1:40.0

write, hey Paul, I was just about to listen to the new episode.

1:43.0

It started to read the description of the show you refer to the guest and then a parentheses

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