Welcome to No Visible Bruises, the podcast that shares real-life survivor stories of narcissistic abuse, domestic abuse and coercive control from a physiology first and nervous system perspective, because you can't think your way out of this. You need to feel to heal. I'm Caroline Strawson, a survivor myself and now a trauma expert and educator.

I am here to create change and understanding of the unseen abuse that we are not taught about

in schools and to heal from the inside out at a nervous system level.

Let's break the silence and change the narrative because we heal

together. So in today's episode, I am joined by Nikki Antonazio and I have to, if you are someone who struggles with your weight,

you have yo-yo-dited over the years, you are a survivor of narcissistic abuse,

domestic abuse or coercive control, and you feel frustrated. And when you look in the mirror,

you feel hatred towards yourself. And I say that because that's how I felt. You have to listen

or watch today's episode because Nikki helped show me exactly the reason why scientifically I was

not eating a lot, but not losing weight. In fact, I was putting on weight. And we're going to

talk all things metabolic disorder. We're going to talk all things metabolic disorder.

We're going to talk all things about narcissistic abuse from a parent in our childhood and how that impacts how we feel about ourselves with people pleasing, perfectionism, high achieving and the impact that then has on the rest of your life.

So there's some key phrases

we're going to talk about in today's episode, Disordid Eating, Food Noise, Metabolic Disorder,

and of course, narcissistic abuse. So stay tuned. You are not going to want to miss this episode.

So Nikki, honestly, I am so glad we are having this conversation on so many levels, because we've known each other a long time now, haven't we? And I met you when I was looking locally here in Northamptonshire for a local gym. And you were working there. And I came in and we've remained friends, we've remained connected, we've worked together over the years as well. And, you know, obviously I've given you a bit of an introduction there, but I think

knowing what we're going to be talking around, around trauma and narcissistic abuse and our

experiences are, you know, both of our experiences with our father in our childhood, just to explain

to all of the listeners as well. We know we're going to do the sort of narcissistic

abuse piece, but exactly what you do, because this is going to be really pivotal in the subject

matter, because if anyone's listening to this right now and they're trying to lose way or

they're stuck, this is going to be pivotal about understanding what you do.

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