Dr. Nasey!

No matter what you see in the coming months,

regardless of how convincing it might seem,

know that I didn't want to die.

I'm going to take all possible steps to prevent my predetermined demise,

but if I don't make it,

I need at least someone to know what really happened to me.

I'm not, nor have I ever been a remarkable person.

I've never been terrible,

but I never did great deeds either.

To put it bluntly,

ever since I left high school,

I found my place in eternal mediocrity.

Honestly, being perfectly average

didn't bother me much while growing up.

Life was decent,

I didn't struggle,

and it felt like I had an overabundance of time to improve myself.

But, once I entered my thirties,

the time I'd wasted started to wear on my confidence,

and about a vanciety invaded my otherwise peaceful existence.

In order to make myself feel better,

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