My husband died and I have to pretend that he was a great man who loved me.

This was originally posted on August the 11th, 2024.

My husband passed away three months ago and I was relieved of that. He abused me financially, mentally and even physically.

When I got pregnant he convinced me to quit my job saying that he would take care of me.

I could never buy anything again without asking his permission. I couldn't even buy a cream without asking his permission and he decided if I could or not.

Even months ago when I had little money of my own, I had to ask him for permission to buy something.

What was mine was his and his was his.

But I stayed there because I still loved him and didn't have a place to go.

I had too low self-esteem and let myself be stepped on.

When I stopped loving him he had already had his first affair. He made me believe that I was

to blame for the affair because I didn't want to have sex months after my birth that left me torn and I had to receive stitches.

I was already planning my exit and saving money little by little while I was working on selling things from home since he wouldn't let me work outside because he was very jealous.

I wanted to pay for a lawyer. He was having another affair with a friend of his which luckily kept him busy and I didn't care anymore that he didn't pay

attention to me I wanted him to stay as far away as possible I knew that man and he knew

me I could have made a big fuss but I I didn't. I kept quiet, planning my way out, while he and that man slept together in secret. I only felt disgusted by my husband, nothing more. But my husband died in a way I never would have expected. He's now a martyr.

When someone dies, all the sins of that person disappear because that's what even my family thinks.

Those who knew about his affair and how he manipulated me

are now talking about how good of a man he was and that we shouldn't insult someone who's dead.

Everyone around me talks about how beautiful our relationship was. His family talks about what a great man he was,

and how he always focused on giving everything to me and our kid. His affair partner

hugs me at the funeral, saying that my husband loved me.

His friends told me what a great person he was.

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