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Cults to Consciousness

My Brutal Near Death Relationship with the Jehovah’s Witnesses

Cults to Consciousness

Shelise Ann Sola, Jonathan C Rosales

Society & Culture

4.8570 Ratings

🗓️ 20 May 2026

⏱️ 79 minutes

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Summary

Meg was raised in the Jehovah’s Witnesses and grew up under intense pressure, surveillance, and emotional control.  Her upbringing lead to isolation, fear, and a lack of understanding around autonomy and consent.  After experiencing SA in young adulthood, she blamed herself due to purity-based teachings and remained in the relationship out of guilt before ultimately confessing to church elders, where she endured invasive and degrading questioning.  She was then disfellowshipped, resulting in total social shunning by her community and much of her family, which deepened her shame, loneliness, and self-destructive coping behaviors. Even after being cut off, during a traumatizing miscarriage, she refused a blood transfusion out of devotion to the Jehovah’s Witness blood doctrine that nearly took her life.though she eventually found support outside the group and began rebuilding her sense of identity and independence.

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It was just like this feeling that I was always being watched. I was always being evaluated, and I was always at risk of disappointing someone.

0:40.3

If you allowed yourself to be alone with someone of the opposite sex, something like this was going to happen.

0:48.3

I had no comprehension of consent. I didn't understand what happened. So I was blaming myself, really,

0:56.0

and I just felt the only way to fix it was to marry him. This fellowship thing is not just a religious

1:05.2

label. It's social erasure. When everyone you've known your entire life just drunks you as if you never existed as if

1:13.6

you never mattered as if you were never important to them because i believe that what they did

1:19.7

was right i thought that i was the one that was wrong it was so deeply embedded in my mind

1:24.5

for jehovah's witnesses accepting a blood transfusion is considered a serious sim, even in

1:32.4

life-threatening circumstances.

1:34.3

So I needed a blood transfusion, and I refused it.

1:38.5

My blood count was literally three, and my body went into hypopolemic shock.

1:43.2

Mine is the only voice. What have I been doing? and my body went into hypopulemic shock.

1:46.3

Mine is the only voice.

1:47.7

What have I been doing?

1:49.8

Lay down my autonomy.

1:53.4

After that, it got very dark very quickly.

2:03.4

Hey guys, my name is Shalise Ansela and this is Colts to Consciousness where we discuss leaving high demand religions or organizations and finding healing and independence through

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