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I'm Rebecca, I'm still an alcoholic.

Thanks Tammy for re us in to do this on a Saturday night.

So I don't really want to be an alcoholic like quite frankly but the truth is is after

realizing at a relatively young age after being institutionalized as a teenager and we easily

my way out of multiple inpatient and outpatient programs that no matter what

I did no matter what combination of abstinence or substances or standing on my head or yoga or

veganism or fuck all like I couldn't drink or use like a quote unquote normal person.

So this last time I dragged my carcass into a rehab on June 11th of 2009.

And that was definitely a last gasp desperation kind of thing.

Yeah, I don't really know what to say about my recovery.

I mean, it still trips me out that it's been over a decade since I had any kind of drug or any bit of alcohol in my system because I was definitely one

of those people that could not function without something to like create a buffer between

me and the world. My little safety blankie as I called it. And I don't

understand why this like weird group of misfit toys has been able to like get me through so many ups and downs in my life.

I have gotten married in recovery, I'm getting divorced in recovery, I've opened a business, I've got married in recovery I'm getting divorced in recovery I've opened a business I've bought a house I've lost a house I've seen friends recover I've seen friends die I don't know that there's very much that this program couldn't

support me through. I know when I came into the rooms in my 20s that I had a lot of caveats to my recovery like a lot of well if blah

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