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Multi-Layered Trauma w/ Jon Sawyer

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Religion & Spirituality

4.8566 Ratings

🗓️ 2 February 2022

⏱️ 50 minutes

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Summary

Jon Sawyer was raised in two homes influenced by both high-demand religion and secular worldviews. Prior to his parent's divorce at the age of four, his family was involved with both Transcendental Meditation (TM) and Christian Science. Shortly after his parent's divorce, his mother took a secular route, while his father converted to Pentecostal and charismatic Christianity. While Jon's father sprinkled elements of TM and Christian Science into his childhood, his dad's newfound evangelical Christian faith fixated on the end of the world, divine healing, speaking in tongues, and the "prosperity gospel." When Jon was fifteen, he converted to Mormonism. From the age of fifteen to thirty-five, Jon was involved with various high-demand religious groups that were associated with both charismatic Christianity and Mormonism. As a teen who was deeply conflicted about his attraction to the same sex, Jon attended the now-defunct Spirit Life Bible College (SLBC)-associated with Roberts Liardon Ministries-in Orange County, CA. While at SLBC, Jon experienced multiple sessions of exorcism and conversion therapies that were aimed at "healing" his sexual identity. When Jon was twenty-six, he became involved with Sovereign Grace Churches: a group that began during the charismatic Jesus Movement of the 1970s and eventually adopted a neo-Calvinist theology that emphasized strict gender roles and courtship practices. Jon separated from organized religion six years ago, at the age of 35. Since that time, Jon has benefited from somatic therapy, completed both a BA and MA in education, and is currently a doctoral student and researcher at the University of Colorado Boulder. Partly due to the influence of his experiences with high-demand religious groups, Jon now studies the intersection of education policy and anti-discrimination law. In this second half of Jon's two-part conversation with Rachel, he shares some of his most traumatic religious experiences going through exorcisms and "conversion therapy" at Spirit Life Bible College. Rachel provides further background on "conversion therapy" outlining its dangerous and often hypocritical roots. Together Jon and Rachel unpack the damaging culture of homophobia in the church and offer hope for recovery to those who have been traumatized. Before You Go: Rachel breaks down the unnerving hubris of religious groups who aim to change the sexual or gender identity of others by forcing them to conform to their own rigid and intolerant beliefs. You can contact Jon here: jonesawyer@gmail.com Find Rachel's book "Now I Know: Kids Talking To Kids About Divorce..." here: www.amazon.com/Now-I-Know-Rachel…ein/dp/1620867893 Thanks to all our Patreon supporters! We truly couldn't make the show without you! To help support the show monthly and sign up for cool Indoctrination shirts and tote bags, please visit: www.patreon.com/indoctrination Prefer to support the IndoctriNation show with a one-time donation? Use this link: www.paypal.me/indoctriNATION You can help the show for free by leaving a rating on Spotify or Apple/ iTunes. It really helps the visibility of the show! Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brands

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0:00.0

Welcome to indoctrination, a weekly conversation series about protecting yourself from systems of control.

0:11.0

I'm your host, Rachel Bernstein.

0:13.8

Hello, everybody. Before I introduce the guest for today, I want to make sure to mention two things. First of all, it is very exciting

0:23.5

to get a sense of the demographics of the listeners for the show and how many people listen

0:30.4

each week. And also, we're able to chart where the podcast is popular around the world. And over the last month, we've noticed a spike

0:42.6

in listeners in the UK, the Netherlands, Eastern Europe, South America, Australia, and New Zealand.

0:51.6

It is very exciting. And as I asked before, if any of you from places far away from

1:00.2

where we are here in the United States want to be in touch with us and write to us at

1:05.4

indoctrination show at gmail.com and let us know where you're from and what is it about the

1:10.3

podcast that speaks to you

1:11.9

based on where you live or your government, your history. We would love to learn about that.

1:18.4

And thank you. And let us know, too, if there's particular content that you would like us to

1:23.5

provide for you that would be helpful to you that you'd like to be able to share with the people

1:28.0

who live around you. And also, I want to remind people that I have been requested to not only

1:35.4

provide a former cult member support group. And meanwhile, by former cult member, I also mean

1:41.0

people who have been in relationships with controllers and malignant narcissists,

1:45.7

that while I provide one here for people in the United States, there was a request and kind of a

1:51.5

recurring request from people in the UK. And so if you're interested, let me know. And when I

1:58.5

have enough people to really put together a group I will be happy to do that

2:02.2

and so be in touch with me for the group at the indoctrination show at gmail.com or my private email

2:10.0

Bernstein LMFT at gmail.com I really look forward to hearing from you.

2:19.9

And for today, we are very excited to have John Sawyer back on.

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