We welcome you to another episode of the Steam room, Ernie Johnson and Charles

Barclay. Thanks for tuning us in folks. Chuckster, it's been a

draining week, has it not? It's been the craziest thing I've been in

NBA since 1984. The only other time I've been this

depressed is when Maddie Johnson announced that he had HIV. I cried that night and this was I cried what I heard the news about Kobe and it's been surreal, draining, sad, happy. When I say

happy I mean when we were in LA, just the outpouring of love for that man, those fans

chatting his name for, that's like almost four four days now. That made me happy that you

know I think when everybody passes you want people to say you made a difference

not in the world.

And like I say, but I have made a conscious effort to like,

man, I've got to stop feeling gloomy.

I saw Vanessa put a post out. That made me feel better. Because at some

point you got to stop, now you don't ever stop grieving but you got to go on living.

And I think, and Ernie I did not do any interviews this week consciously because number one I didn't know what to say

I apologize to all my friends who on all the TV and radio that I didn't that's like I

just not I didn't know what to say and also I want to think every

person who texts me saying they were thinking about me I mean hundreds of my friends

text me people that I've been associated with it because they know

that this hurt us as a family as an NBA family and I want to thank every

person who took time to text me.

It meant a lot.

I didn't get back to everybody.

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