I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and I looked over there and I said I hate you like

legit I hate you.

And you should die. Like you should just do it.

You've been playing around with the idea for so long. You should just...

You should do it. You know, and two weeks prior I had overdosed on heroin and I could not

I just couldn't figure out how to stop. I wanted to stop desperately. I did. I really did. I remember walking from that apartment that I overdosed in. I was walking west on 13th Street and I was like

that's it man. was back at it.

How have you let yourself go get to this place?

That night I was back at it.

And so for those two weeks I kind of had made a commitment in the opposite direction and said,

all right, dude, well, you're not going to figure out how to end this.

In a positive way, you might as well push as hard as you can till it's over, like till you're dead.

Michael Churnow has earned the right to deliver you a message.

And that message is, anyone matter how dire your circumstances or

daunting your obstacles has the ability to change to liberate yourself from your past, rewrite the script of your life,

and transform yourself wholesale, one day at a time. I don't want to spoil it but I will say that this is a powerful

conversation about sobriety, about resilience and

it's about humility over ego and the power of consistent small habits to move mountains.

It's about gratitude and it's about service. But first.

I've hosted a slew of top-tier microbiome experts on the podcast and one thing is undeniably clear.

The quality of your microbiome influences just an astonishing number of physiological functions, including

brain health, heart health, skin health, immune system health, mental health and mood,

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