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The Confessionals

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🗓️ 30 October 2025

⏱️ 21 minutes

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Summary

When deliverance stops being theory and starts manifesting in the room, the polite veneer of “therapy” shreds. In this conversation, Kelly Hawley opens the door to a world most churches refuse to touch; survivors of SRA, programmed dissociation, and the long, deliberate war on bloodlines. What begins as testimony turns into a field report from the frontlines: parts and personas formed by trauma, counterfeit “trees” built in the soul, and the odd, terrible calm of activations meant to weaponize the broken. Through it all, Kelly keeps returning to the same center; Jesus, Holy Spirit authority, and the slow work of healing that refuses to charge the wounded a dime. It’s dark. It’s real. It’s happening. And it demands a response.

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0:00.0	Hey, everybody. This is a preview of today's members episode. If you want to hear the whole thing,
0:04.4	head on over to the confessionalspodcast.com. Hit the join button and become a member today.
0:10.9	Merkel. Media.
0:17.2	This was all circulating around the base that a giant had to kill but no one was supposed to talk about it.
0:23.6	I saw three long, bony fingers, reach up underneath the door, curl up to grab it, and then disappear.
0:33.6	When he came over to me, dude, he slithered over to me.
0:44.1	And this giant comes out of the cave and they're all frozen.
0:47.8	And he starts running and firing up this giant.
0:51.0	Well, the giant moves.
0:52.9	He's got a spear in one hand, and he's running really fast.
0:56.5	And spears, Dan, holds him up like this. Somebody else, shoot him in the face, shoot him in the face.
1:02.7	They basically decapitated.
1:06.4	Got closer, got closer, got closer, got closer, got closer, when he got about 15 yards away from me, I raised that 12 days and I blow this head on.
1:14.9	I feel something pulling at my leg.
1:17.9	And I look over and there are two small gray entities pulling it.
1:24.2	And they're literally, I'm getting pulled off the bed.
1:26.2	I reached my hand into this bush and I touch air. Couldn't breathe. And I couldn't move because I know I'm seeing a monster. Today we have Kelly on the show. Kelly, is it Holly? H-A-W-L-E-Y, Holly. Am I pronouncing right? That's what it is, Holly. Okay. It's funny because everybody asked that, and I'm like, I don't know, Holly, Holly, what's the, yeah. Yeah, yeah. I just met a lady, her first name is Holly, and she spells it just like your last name. And I wasn't sure. I was like, is it Holly or like, Hawley? And I was just like, it just threw me off. So I just wanted to make sure I wasn't pronouncing it wrong.
2:03.8	No, it just threw me off. So I just wanted to make
2:02.6	sure I wasn't pronouncing it. No, it's half the time people call me Holly. You know,
2:07.5	when you have the name Kelly Hawley, they just hear the emphasis on Holly. So I'm, whatever you want to
2:12.3	call me. It's good. I always love people with two first names.
2:24.9	So you are, are you the head of the ship when it comes to warrior bride ministries?
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