Me vs. My Brain: Stories about losing your self
The Story Collider
Story Collider, Inc.
4.4 • 824 Ratings
🗓️ 3 August 2018
⏱️ 38 minutes
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Summary
This week, we're presenting stories about what happens when our own brains keep us from being fully ourselves.
Part 1: When storyteller Sandi Marx begins to develop cognitive symptoms of lupus, she worries she'll lose the aspects of her personality that she values most.
Part 2: Chemist Toria Stafford's untreated mental illness starts to overwhelm both her science and her personal life.
Sandi Marx, a retired talent agent, has been touring the country, telling stories, for the past three years. A multiple Moth story slam champ, she has been featured at the Women’s Boston Comedy Festival and regularly performs on shows such as Risk, Yums The Word, Women of Letters, Soundbites, and countless others. She can also be heard on podcasts for all the above and also HotMic with Dan Savage. Most recently, Sandi was featured on PBS for “Stories From The Stage." She is thrilled to be back at Story Collider, her favorite show for brainiacs.
Toria Stafford just finished her PhD at the School of Chemistry at the University of Manchester. Her research looks at lanthanides, uranium and other radioactive actinide elements by emission spectroscopy to further understand processes and fingerprint species relevant to the nuclear fuel cycle. She has a passion for science communication, public engagement and women in STEM advocacy, jumping at the chance to take part in events throughout the UK. Outside the lab, Toria enjoys reading sci-fi/fantasy books, watching musicals and eating chocolate.
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| 0:00.0 | A science story, huh? |
| 0:04.8 | Is NYU scientist the... |
| 0:06.6 | I felt... |
| 0:07.4 | I was so... |
| 0:08.7 | And I just thought, well... |
| 0:09.6 | It was that golden moment. |
| 0:12.8 | Because science was on my side. |
| 0:18.4 | Hey, everybody. |
| 0:19.7 | Welcome to the Story Collider, where we bring you true personal stories about science. |
| 0:24.7 | I'm your host, Erin Barker, and this week we're presenting stories about battles with our own brains. |
| 0:31.3 | What happens when the thing that is keeping us from being ourselves and living up to our potential is actually our own brain. We'll find out. |
| 0:40.5 | Our first story today is from Sandy Marks. It was recorded in March 2018 at caveat in New York. |
| 0:46.9 | The theme that night was brain awareness. |
| 0:59.0 | It could be a lot worse. |
| 1:01.4 | I say this a lot. |
| 1:02.4 | I say it all the time. |
| 1:06.5 | You see, I have lupus, and it's systemic, so it affects a lot of me. |
| 1:09.7 | And when I run into friends or family on the street sometimes, |
| 1:11.8 | and I look like I worked a graveyard shift at a graveyard, and I see the look. |
| 1:16.8 | It's that hound dog, like a real hound dog, the one with the pipe and the hat look. |
| 1:22.1 | And I always think, do not feel sorry for me because I don't feel sorry for myself. And I thought I did a better job covering the fact that I look so shitty |
| 1:31.1 | Because I wear so much makeup. I'm like you're like a concealer like an angry clown |
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