How can I manage the resentment my 25 year old girlfriend and I, a 42 year old man, have for each other?

I know I'm going to get a lot of trash for the absurd age gap and the way we started.

And I agree and I deserve it, but I would really like some genuine advice past going to counselling.

She won't agree and I can't afford it anyways.

Tangible things that I can work on and introduce to help us, either as a couple or as effective co-parents.

Long story short, my ex-wife and I were together since middle school.

We have four daughters in their teens.

I was a stay-at-home dad and part-time worker for most of my life until my youngest was in middle school.

My ex agreed to invest in a passion project

business of mine. I hired a receptionist. We started an affair and she baby trapped me. Now we're

living together and have a young son. She resents me because she feels she was fools. She saw me as a

business owner who had a nice car, nice clothes, took her to nice places, etc. She thought I was rich, so she got

pregnant on purpose. She admitted it, that's not an assumption, hoping to use me to not work and

sponsor her family from overseas. Well, actually, my ex-wife and her family are the rich ones.

None of our homes were in our names. We were renting from her parents and giving them a nominal fee

with the expectations that these homes would be left to my ex and me after their death.

This allowed my ex's salary, roughly 150,000, which isn't actually huge in this high cost of living

area, to stretch, and we lived a really good life. I left our marriage with half our savings,

roughly 25k, and my personal

property and car. I lost my business due to lack of funding and I did not seek alimony. I resent her

because I feel I was fooled. I thought she loved me and couldn't believe the interest a young,

hot woman showed in me. She was incredibly persistent and pursued me strongly strongly but she has no feelings for me no care

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