Raise your hand if you've ever felt like your body is failing you. Not me raising my hand over here.

I have felt this way so many times. The sheer frustration that we can experience when our bodies just are not doing the things we think they're supposed to be doing, or when we have unexplained symptoms, or

unexplained pain, or unexplained infertility, or all of these different things that can

make us go, why is my body revolting against me? What is going on? And it can feel even more

frustrating when we don't know why. Why is my skin breaking out in acne? I eat pretty clean, right?

Why is my body not getting pregnant?

And all my friends are.

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One way or another, I think we've all experienced this feeling.

And we may not have articulated it this way.

Like, I feel like my body is failing me.

But the frustration, the discouragement, the anger, the even resentment we may have toward our body is kind of rooted in that belief.

Like, hey, you're not

functioning the way that I think you should be or you are not looking the way that I think you

should be in spite of my best efforts. I'm working out every day or I'm trying to eat healthy or I'm

doing these things and you're just like not losing the weight. You're not getting pregnant.

The skin isn't clearing up. The thing isn't fixing itself, right? Gosh, I remember there's, I mean, I think of so many different times I felt this way, but especially during our journey to try to have kids and the journey through recurrent miscarriages and the, why is this happening? And the journey with my skin when I had chronic, inflamed cystic acne, not just like the occasional breakout that we all get here and there, but like, I mean, truly like lumps underneath my skin, painful lumps, lots of just congestion in spite of trying to get on the best skin care and seeing dermatologists and eating relatively cleaning, cutting out dairy, and doing all of the quote unquote right things they tell you to do for acne. I'm like, why does my face look like that of a 14 year old and not a 25 year old? Like this doesn't make any sense. And so regardless of what the specifics may be of your experience with this feeling, the realities I think we've all experienced it to some extent. And I want to talk about it. In fact, I wrote about this whole feeling and this experience and the truth behind this lie that we believe my body is failing me in be good to your body, because I truly believe what we believe about our bodies shapes how we treat them, period. If we're mad at them, if we're resenting them, if we're believing that they're failing us, that there's something wrong with them or that they're,

you know, a mess or whatever, we're going to treat them as such. And we can go to one or two extremes. It doesn't really matter what I do anyway, because it's just going to be a hot mess, like, whatever. And we can kind of be tempted to just throw in the towel on all things caring for ourselves, right? or we can go to the opposite extreme, which I know I've done.

I've kind of vacillated between the two, depending on the day and the season and kind of how I was feeling. But sometimes

we can go to the opposite extreme and almost like reach for control and try to control everything

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