I did a video like a month or two ago with a guy called Josh Bridgman who he's recently

become, he's recently got his pro card, he's an IFB Pro, right? At the time, we were, but this

is before I started this cut, so we were both around 100 kilograms in body weight, right? Um,

he made me look like a fucking skinny little girl. Like I looked, I was quite confident before

that session, right? And at the end of the session session I literally went home and was like why am I even bothered

like he had so much more muscle mass than me it was embarrassing like I looked

my fucking shoulders my upper chest it was it was honestly I felt so like a piece of

shit right now if you look at him a few years ago like I definitely have above average

genetics I think I have very good genetics to build muscle and in terms of symmetry and you know I think I'm lucky in that sense. I can I can look pretty decent right. If you look at him say five years ago I'd say if anything my genetics are probably better than his right. So in that case how can I be taking drugs and then train with a guy who also takes drugs and he looks so much

better than me at the same body weight. I don't see how it's possible. Do you know what I mean?

Like I like that in itself. I said I made it I think I made it like six weeks maybe two months ago.

Yeah. That in itself for me is just overwhelmingly clear that I'm not on drugs because how a lot of people will just say you're

wrong like TRT and I'm not on the shitters drugs you mean it don't work for that to be the case or you're

just on TRT and he's on blasting hell of shit because he's trying to be iFPB pro yeah but I still think like

again with this is the annoying thing right like I'm never going to do it but part of me is like if I just fucking did whatever the

best drugs are for like six months here I'd be a fucking monster I'd be the biggest strongest

man the planet mate that's what and that's what almost annoys me the most is that like part

of me is like do you know what I'm just gonna go fucking take loads of drugs and be like that's

what I look like on drugs do I mean but obviously I'm not going to do that. So it's not an option. But yeah. Well, you never know.

Sometimes the best looking guys natural respond shitty to drugs and they end up like not that would be

ironic. Yeah. But yeah. But anyway, like obviously this thing I think we'll seal the deal if we can

coordinate it. I say ultimately all of these things are just like largely subjective.

...