Hey I got a question for you. When it's the last time you went all in on something I don't mean all in like in the way that we say

literally but we mean figuratively and all in means sort of in but like I tried a little

harder than usual I mean all in like I don't care about anything else. I have

one focus I have one direction in this entire world right now and it is that thing

and I am gonna go get it. I went all in on three maybe four crushes between

sixth and ninth grade before I finally had some friends pull me aside and be like

that dude that is just not how you do that.

And I am not going to humiliate myself or others

further by using the name of the girls on whom I had crushes,

but I just didn't know what to do and I would blow off everything else and

make these grand ovations to be like I like you and think you're cute and I

would just humiliate myself massively in front of everyone.

And for most of my life I've looked back on those all-in young crush moments.

I'm like, you idiot!

What were you thinking?

Oh, this is why nobody loves you.

But then I get to thinking about it a little more recently.

I'm like, you know what, innocent, sweet little Matt Whitman,

I like that version of you.

I like the version of you that was like that girl is nice and cute and I want her to like me back and so I'm gonna try and again fail miserably and humiliate myself a little bit further down the road in life. I loved it when as a lifelong Denver Broncos fan and my team had never won a Super Bowl. Here we are coming down the home stretch against the Green Bay Packers and Super Bowl, whatever that was was and we just got to have this first down an old man John Elway who was like 71 at the time that he played in that game

goes rolling out of the pocket and a bunch of packers are chasing after him and the

safeties are coming up and he's gonna get drilled.

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