I'm Jane Marie and this is the dream.

All of this talk of wellness, of being healthy and having a positive mindset and all that,

from the very beginning of intently thinking about it because of this podcast, it's really caused

my anxiety to spike. My days are filled with creepy thoughts about what my insides look like,

where cancer is growing

or might grow later, how clogged my arteries probably are, and what my liver thinks of everything.

It's not just days.

The anxiety is creeping into nighttime, too.

It's, let's see, 11.04 at night.

I woke up out of my sleep tonight with the idea that I should try to do wellness.

I had a nightmare that the speaker system at the drive-thru at Arby's stopped working.

I'm sorry.

And then I was the one at the speaker when I was trying to make my order and I couldn't.

And then a line of like 30 cars lined up behind me and they were all honking at me.

But no one could hear me on the other side of the speaker.

I was hungry in the middle of the night.

I think it's kind of one of those dreams where you have to pee and you really do have to pee.

At any rate, for this podcast, perhaps I could get healthy.

I don't know how.

That's not true.

I'm unhealthy, not a complete ding-dong.

What I mean is that I don't know how to actually implement wellness in my life in a way that's authentic.

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