Lost Patience is about serious mental illness.

This episode includes details about drug use and mentions suicide,

so it might be disturbing for some listeners.

When you're dreaming, you know, you'll see things that are fantastical.

Obviously, none of it is really happening, but when you're in a dream, you don't know that.

When you wake up from a dream, you realize, oh, that wasn't real, but when you're in a dream, it's totally real.

You have no idea that it's not actually your life.

When I've had chances to ask people what psychosis is like, more than one has answered like this, that it's kind of like a dream.

You wake up and you forget a lot of the details and you might have some hazy pieces to put together.

So, yeah, it's a lot like a dream.

And everybody, I think, can relate to that who at least

remembers their dreams.

Psychosis is what we call it when someone loses touch with reality, usually because of a serious

mental illness like schizophrenia.

What I've learned is that psychosis can be wonderful in the ways dreams are wonderful.

I thought I controlled the weather, and I would stand outside in the rain just like the guy in Shawshank Redemption, like, ah.

And, you know, it's kind of funny in hindsight because it was kind of awesome to think I controlled the weather.

I was like invincible.

It's euphoric in some way.

I think I felt sort of euphoric at the same time I was feeling fright. And psychosis can be terrifying in the ways dreams are terrifying. I would be looking at somebody

and I'd see their face and I'd turn around and it wasn't that same person. It was like they

had a different face. I had an episode thinking I was going to be poisoned

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