I'm surrounded by blinking lights.

The light is racing past in both directions on the bridge, office lights starting sky

scrapers and industrial buildings along the skylines on both sides of the river.

The city is so expansive and energetic, it feels endless.

But the energy doesn't penetrate me.

I can only see the walls closing in on my life.

Having recently outed myself as a fan of food YouTube, I'm so excited to introduce Andrew

Ray, whose cooking show, Binging with Babish, has been seen more than two billion times.

In his show, he takes food ideas from pop culture and creates them in his kitchen.

Kevin's famous chili from the office, the crabby patty from SpongeBob SquarePants, the

Putin on the Ritzberger from Bob's Burgers.

But just a few years ago, the show didn't exist, and Andrew's life looked very, very different.

We're going to release Andrew's Meditative Story in two parts.

This is part one.

It's a bit of an experiment, so let us know what you think at hello at meditativestory.com.

Andrew shares what leads him drastically alter the trajectory of his life in a matter of

months, and how he builds his life back up after burning so much of it down.

It's a tough episode in some ways, because what he learns emerges from letting go of a relationship,

but it's an important life event that many of us may experience.

In this series, we combine immersive first-person stories, breathtaking music, and mindfulness

pumps, so that we may see our lives reflected back to us in other people's stories, and

that can lead to improvements in our own in our lives.

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