This is Craig McCottle and I'm with Alan Arnold and we stole away to record a podcast up in our recording studio. Good to see you Alan. Thanks Greg. It's

November, finally turning fall outside. Love it. Yeah. Love the season change. Why? Well because I grew up in Texas and it was hot 365 days of the year.

So to actually be in a place where there's a cool breeze,

turning of the leaves, cooler days, I love it. Mmm, that's good.

Hey, I wanted to share a story with you and those who listen in.

I think it illustrates how quickly and easily and deep seated our self-contempt is and the shame that becomes the lens through which we see just about everything happening to us.

So, you know, I'm in this battle with cancer and in the course of fighting the cancer, I've had to deal with a number of different things that come up as a result of either the cancer or the treatment I'm getting physically. So recently I was diagnosed with

sleep apnea. You familiar with that? I am. So until three weeks ago you had no idea.

No, you had that. My wife had some idea because I was developed a pretty vigorous snoring and gasping, but it feels new to me and to be diagnosed with it.

So I get diagnosed with sleep apnea and I was embarrassed that that was a diagnosis that now is on my list of things going on inside of me. So I went in and had a sleep test and oh my gosh it's

just unimaginable. You go into this room they hook you up with about 200 wires.

You've got them all over your head, your chest.

They're even measuring my leg movements.

It's something between a hospital and a personal storage unit and a hotel room.

And you have a bed and there's lights and there's cameras and there's all these things going on to measure, you know, how significant your sleep apnea is.

And so they do the test and I find out that on average I stop breathing for at least 10 seconds 48 times an hour.

Oh wow 48 times an hour.

Yeah, the length of one stop 36 seconds.

So I definitely have sleep apnea.

And I've got to get one of those CPAP machines and yada yada yada.

Well, as soon as I get diagnosed I go to my counseling appointment.

I'm seeing a local counselor working through all kinds of stuff.

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