Hello friends, it's me, Doug Goodtrustle, and you are listening to the Doug Good Trustle

Family Hour podcast, Harry Krishna, happy 2014.

For the last couple of days, I've been trying to record an intro to this podcast, and I keep

coming up short every time.

This is one of the frustrating things about making this podcast is I don't feel right

just releasing them if I can't say the thing that I'm trying to say and say it honestly,

and it's really frustrating because I guess I could just do, okay, here's the commercials

and here's the guest, but I don't want to do this right now because it's the first podcast

of 2014, and I feel really superstitious about that or something, which is ridiculous.

But here's the problem.

I have cognitive dissonance right now.

My mind is going crazy because this week, I have to go and get chest x-rays, and I have

to get a blood test, which I have to do every four months for the next two years as part

of the program that happens after you get testicular cancer, and every time I have to do this,

it freaks me the fuck out, and I really am forced to try to implement some of the stuff that

I've been learning, and it's really hard for me to do, because the idea is that everything

that comes to you in the universe is a teaching, and no matter what it is, you know, and sometimes

the teaching is like, oh my god, I just had a beautiful baby with this woman that I'm

completely in love with, and the teaching is like, is deepening your love with another

human being.

And those are the divine, beautiful, sweet forms of the teachings, but a lot of the times

the teaching is not that.

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