Just a few miles off the Thailand coast, the island of Kothau looks like a postcard.

I'd underneath the surface lies something sinister.

In the last 20 years dozens of tourists have died mysteriously on the island.

A dark cloud who's come over the island, death, mystery and danger.

Listen to Death Island every Wednesday on the I Heart Radio app, Apple Podcasts or wherever you get your podcasts.

Well, I have two sons, so I spend a lot of time trying to raise good men, right?

Men that are kind to women, when they understand their duties, men that have a responsibility.

And I think Lesbian should raise all the men because they're super macho and yet sense it, but at the same time.

Hi, it's your friend Bethany, who is turning 50.

And that sounds like a big, bad number to so many people.

I remember thinking that I had to have my whole life wrapped up in my early 20s, which is presumably why I stopped trying to be an actress, why I got married at 26.

My friends were getting married. Our friend group was doing that.

I think that was sort of the last of that generation that really got married on the younger side.

And even in my 30s, I mean, not, you know, 10 years ago, 11 years ago, I was getting insufficient.

I mean, it was a little over 11 years ago, getting insufficient funds at the ATM, writing checks that were bouncing, not able to afford a taxi downtown in Manhattan.

And still in my late 30s, I did not know what was going to happen to me.

So I look at the trajectory from my late 30s to now. I was a late bloomer in my career.

I was always driven. I was always determined, but I always was a hard worker and I always was moving forward on the road.

And I have a beautiful daughter. Like I got my beautiful daughter.

I have a career that is unfathomable. I have an amazing impact in the world from a philanthropic standpoint.

So by and large, I'm happy. And I've experienced a great loss.

I lost somebody who I knew for 32 years who was a constant in my life who was not going to leave me. I got them to cry.

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