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Sarah, Sarah, the way free.

Uh-huh.

Combination of things.

It's like, and I think people get to the point a little bit of maybe A combination of things. I mean, manipulative.

And I think people get to the point a little bit of maybe they're afraid of him or it's like, not my monkeys, not my circus.

You know, I don't want to know, best of luck, stay away from me.

You know, I, with him.

I don't know.

I mean, these were people that were hired to be to

function in the best interest of the children and even they wouldn't that's crazy do it so anyway

so you go through i'm in the house and i'm like this is it you know i'm going to find whatever he's

been doing because i didn't know is it alcohol is it pills it just, I'm going to find whatever he's been doing.

Because I didn't know, is it alcohol, is it pills?

I just, I didn't know.

And, and, and forced him to get help.

And so I went on a warpath through that house.

And it was, it was so sad.

I found like 23, I think, bottles of Graham Arnie, like huge bottles in places like in the, in the linen closet in the bathroom where the behind the towels stuffed under the bed all over the basement, just everywhere. And the pills that that one psychiatrist was writing,

I still want to like just say his name because he deserves to be recognized for all this,

but I don't know if I'm allowed to do that. He was still writing. He was writing ketamine. He was

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