I don't want to be defined by who I am or am not dating. So let me just tell you what goes on with me and my love life.

My love life, my dating era, my adventure era.

I've gotten married on television.

I've been paid to expose my personal life.

That was the name of the game.

That was what I signed up for.

I've been through the rumor mill, a very public negative divorce where I

couldn't use my own voice and say what I was going through. I was terrified that there would be

repercussions for explaining that I was going through hell. And I was painted to be the villain

and the person who's quiet and isn't getting their words out,

particularly when you're in the public eye, or even in your, I was called the cul-de-sac,

the person who's saying nothing everybody else gets to just spin rumors about.

So then I left reality TV, and that was very vindicating and very liberating because I decided

that I wanted some version of a private life.

Now, that's laughable given the fact that I'm in the media pretty much every day.

But I wanted to try to have some version of a private life.

I was in a relationship for years, a very meaningful, very significant relationship,

and it's tempting.

You're in a relationship with someone. You're out at a

restaurant and you're trying something and you want to share it with your followers and you want to

include the person you're with. You also want to share the person you're with with your followers and

they get invested and you want to inspire them that they too could meet someone. You also want to let

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