Lamanara.

You know, I don't usually play characters who are first and foremost beauties.

I mean, you know, Elaine, for example, she was cute enough but there was no requirement of beauty and the

character didn't lead with that and maybe it's a lucky thing too because I have a

semi uncomfortable relationship with my looks.

I mean, well, no, I mean, not exactly, okay, that's not fair.

I'm actually perfectly fine looking how I look.

What I mean is is that sure some days I wish I looked younger or prettier, sexier,

you know, whatever.

But that's a, you know, that's like a cultural requirement for women and that is a different subject. So never mind. I like to play characters. That's what I like.

When I'm required to be just me when the focus is my image in front of a camera with no

script, no character that's that's harder for me. I've I've always felt so ill at

ease on the red carpet for this reason. I'm not exactly

complaining. I really am not. I know I'm lucky to be there. This is a good

problem to have, but it doesn't mean I feel comfortable. And the same thing is true at photo shoots too.

I'm always trying to look like I'm at ease, but my interior monologue is just, it's going

a mile a minute and it's basically saying get

me the fuck out of here. I mean really don't get me wrong I do love to get dressed

up I love pretty clothes like I mean I really love them. I love having my hair and

makeup done generally speaking you know assuming it turns out okay. But the part of

walking the carpet or posing on a photographer's set has always been a challenge

for me.

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