What drives me and what probably always have driven me was fear.

Then I would get myself into a state where I didn't care if it was Phelaini, for example, pictures of me squaring up to Phelaine.

I didn't care how, I just lost complete control.

But I was on the back page of the fag, thinking, oh my God, what's arson going to think?

From a mental point of

view, probably at that point, I didn't realize how much damage it had done. You could tell straight

away when Mikkel came in, he was a leader, he was a little bit different. During my whole time,

my whole career at Arsenal, there was always that question mark, you know, where's the Vieira, where's them leaders, where's the Tony Adams?

This is up front with me, Simon Jordan.

I believe there are a lot of vacuous, uninformed, unchallenged opinions out there.

I want to get to the bottom line and cut through the nonsense.

So with this podcast with William Hill, I'm going to get people with strong views who think they can stand them up to proper scrutiny. There's a good chance I might learn something along the way,

and more importantly, so might you.

Joining me in today's episode,

a player who pulled on the famous Arsenal shirt

at just 16 years old.

He was lauded for his talent,

seen as the future for club and country,

before injuries took him off course.

He saw the final years of Venga before becoming part of the new era under Mikhail Arteta

as he begins his coaching career in North London.

Jack Wilshire, welcome to up front.

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