Howdy and welcome to the Breakaway Podcast. Thanks for listening. Breakaway is a Bible study recorded on the campus of Texas A&M University.

Today's message is from Breakaway's Executive Director, Timothy Atik.

We hope you enjoy the message. And Well, about two years after I graduated from Texanam, it was the summer of 2005. I don't know where you were the summer of 2005. I was two years out of

college and I got on a plane to fly to Israel because I have some family there that I could stay with and honestly I just needed to get away from life

here in the states.

And as I sat on that airplane heading toward Tel Aviv, I pulled out my journal. And this is how I started my

journal entry right there in the summer of 2005. I said, well, 2005 is the worst year yet.

And the reason that I had written that

was because I had just gotten out of this very unhealthy

two and a half year on again off again dating relationship

that I've shared about at length here at Breakway and as I sat on that airplane the

fog that I had been living in for the last two and a half years cleared out of my

mind and I began to see.

Like I began to see my compromising decisions.

I saw my hypocrisy as a follower of Jesus Christ.

I saw the disconnect and the dryness that existed between God and myself.

I saw the damage that I had done to my reputation

and I saw the hurt that I had caused

in the life of the girl that I had been dating. I began to see clearly and as I sat there on that airplane

swimming in guilt and shame from all of the different decisions that I had made in this relationship,

my overwhelming all-encompassing reality in that moment was this,

I am not who I want to be that was it that was my all-encompassing

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