Hi everybody I'm I'm Lexi Lombard your host of the at Lexi Podcast. I woke up this morning feeling suspicious.

Something was up.

I don't know exactly what.

Nothing's inherently wrong.

I feel pretty good, all things considered.

But it was strange.

And they say it's, know my diary podcast so I felt let's start

off with how I am at this exact moment where I feel awake I feel alert I feel clear-headed but there's something there's

there's something happening and I'm not sure exactly what it is and I'm feeling

incredibly existential I had a great day yesterday and my friend asked me a really

interesting question while we were in line for breakfast. She asked me, do you

think this is your first time on earth? And it was in the context of me sharing my feelings about my mom and saying, you know, it's both of our first times and she said, do you really think that? Do you really think it's your first time here on earth?

And I paused to think about it for a second

because I've never had an unequivocal knowing

that this is not my first time.

So I said to her, maybe it is. is it really could be how many times do you

think you've been here and she's like I'm not sure but I know that I chose to come

back and that erupted into one of the most beautiful conversations.

And she is really lucky.

This friendship is one of the most special friendships

that I have.

It's incredibly sacred to me.

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