Kayla writes and asks this, Pastor John, my soul is in great distress.

After living in disobedience and under conviction for a few months, my deep desire I once had

for fellowship with God is now gone.

I used to be so in love with Christ.

Hebrews 4 makes clear that sin hardens the heart, and I found it to be true.

My question is, does this mean I have fallen away from the faith?

My biggest fear is being destined for destruction, as Scripture says, of Judas and others.

Please help.

Pastor John, what would you say to Kayla?

I'm really thankful that Kayla is in distress.

I'm thankful that she's fearful because how much worse would it be if Kayla were careless

right now?

If she were cavalier, if she were just blowing off this coldness and saying devil, my care,

I don't give a rip.

I feel it doesn't matter anymore.

I tried the Christianity stuff.

I'm done with it.

That would be infinitely worse than fear and distress.

The text that gives her fear, but also gives hope, is Hebrews 12 about Esau?

See to it, this is chapter 12, verse 15.

From Hebrews, see to it that no one fails to obtain the grace of God.

That no one is sexually immoral or unholy like Esau, and maybe that's what she's done

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