Hey guys this is Sarah from the previous

this is Sarah from the Privy Alliance podcast and as always I have Miss Whitney.

Hi and we have a super special guest today. We're so excited. I know you guys know where

lover Alex from our beautiful surprise.

Welcome.

Thank you so much for having me.

We're so excited.

We're huge fans.

I feel like once you start getting into this world of like motherhood and

mental health and like being open and advocating you kind of find like minded people.

Yeah, and we found you pretty early on just like me and Whitney as like friends and like sending different you know your

reals or your post back and forth and then we really got to kind of learn about you and we're like we have to have her on the

podcast so we're so excited. Well, thank you so much. I'm excited.

So let's just kind of give our listeners who don't know the full story, just like a glimpse

into why you're so passionate and speak up

about mom's mental health.

Yeah, so just kind of a very brief version. I became a mom through infertility and recurrent pregnancy loss. We went through a lot of years of going through that and we did IVF for our first son and then we went through a lot of years of trying to have our second son and recurrent loss and cancelled cycles and just a lot of difficulties.

And then we had our second son via surrogacy at the end of 2020

and then I actually ended up getting pregnant on my own

when he was about four months old and we had our third son last January who just turned one.

So my past and motherhood was very not many here at all, but for me through that I think that I've spent so much time focusing on having children that I didn't really think about what it would be like when I actually had them. And then when I had my first son, I felt like I was just still in this, I'm still having children mindset. I was there for him and I was like he was everything when he was born and we're so excited but like we

jumped so quickly into trying for another one when he was like eight months old or nine months old that I feel like there's so many things that now I feel like I missed but I don't really think I missed them but I just think I was in this mindset of being obsessed over having another child for so long that I didn't even allow myself to process that I was actually already a mom and even once I became a mom again with our second son, I realized that I had not ever processed any of the emotions that go along with infertility or pregnancy loss. I thought I did during it, but I really thought, and I think a lot of people feel this way that once I had him everything would just be okay and I know that's not really true in reality, but I had just this like okay all I have to do is I have to get him here and then everything's going to be okay.

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