And there's no way he was a psychopath to me, but a thousand fucking percent.

That man is textbook psychopath.

He told me that I needed to be fucked.

And that needed to happen in front of Corey.

She's like, butkeelin, like, what if Pantino is the next Jesus?

And I was like, where the fuck am I?

I did not feel safe.

But I felt safer in the sexual expression than I did in resisting it.

They won't tell you which country until you sign the NDA because so many women have gone after him.

I was laying in bed at home and my kids were asking me for breakfast.

I couldn't even get out of bed.

Like I was just not even a human. I couldn't even get out of bed.

Like I was just not even a human.

I wasn't even a shell of a human. Before we get into Keelan's story, I want to say something about anger.

You're going to notice it in his tone throughout this episode. He's pissed off.

Not performative pissed off, like actually pissed off.

And I want to talk about that for a second because I think it matters,

especially for anyone listening who's been through something like this themselves.

One of the things that high control groups and abusive relationships have in common

is that they pathologize emotions, anger in particular.

Anger is reframed as ego, as distortion, as a sign that you haven't done the work,

that the entities are getting to you, that you're not spiritually advanced enough to rise above it.

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