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WTF is on my Mind?!

Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro Ep 1 - Jacqueline Part 1 'The Seeker'

WTF is on my Mind?!

Mark Vicente

Nxivm, Television, Society & Culture, Philosophy, Psychology, Coercive Control, True Crime, Narcissistic Abuse, Coercion, Narcissism, Documentary, Cult, Film, Tv & Film

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🗓️ 29 March 2026

⏱️ 57 minutes

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Summary

I've seen this before. Not something like this. Not a similar version of this. This. The same playbook. The same psychological architecture. Just a different face. For the video version of this podcast, head over to Youtube. My name is Mark Vicente. I'm a filmmaker and a former member of NXIVM, the cult run by Keith Raniere, who is currently serving 120 years in federal prison. I was one of the whistleblowers who helped bring that organization down. That experience was chronicled in The Vow ...

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0:00.0

And there's no way he was a psychopath to me, but a thousand fucking percent.

0:04.3

That man is textbook psychopath.

0:06.7

He told me that I needed to be fucked.

0:09.4

And that needed to happen in front of Corey.

0:13.0

She's like, butkeelin, like, what if Pantino is the next Jesus?

0:16.6

And I was like, where the fuck am I?

0:18.6

I did not feel safe.

0:19.6

But I felt safer in the sexual expression than I did in resisting it.

0:26.6

They won't tell you which country until you sign the NDA because so many women have gone after him.

0:31.6

I was laying in bed at home and my kids were asking me for breakfast.

0:36.2

I couldn't even get out of bed.

0:37.3

Like I was just not even a human. I wasn't even a. I've seen this before. you something I don't say lightly.

1:11.6

I've seen this before.

1:12.6

Not something like this.

1:14.6

Not a similar version of this.

1:16.6

This.

1:17.6

The same playbook, the same language, the same psychological architecture,

1:21.6

just with a different guy's face on it and a different set of followers who believed they'd finally found the answer.

1:26.6

I spent over a decade inside a cult called Nixium.

1:29.9

Some of you know that story.

1:31.6

It ended with arrests, federal convictions, and an HBO documentary series called The Vow.

1:36.8

Once you're out, there's all kinds of lingering psychological shrapnel you have to deal with,

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