A solipsism without profound love is false.

So, I've reached a new level of awakening that I want to tell you about.

If you're interested in something more practical,

less lofty and metaphysical, then you might want to skip this episode.

Otherwise, here we go. So as you know I've been awakening a lot and over the last few years and especially

Many of my awakenings were very solipsistic. I've talked about that in the past and I've been struggling

to integrate this solipsism for for years now really I would say that like probably

my last 30 or more awakenings

were revealing a deeper and deeper form of solipsism

and my mind had to struggle to make sense of it,

to integrate it into ordinary life and that sort of thing and I know that many of you who've been following along have also struggled with that and have a lot of questions about that which I've answered here and there and I've

alluded to and so forth. But there was even though like my awakening

have become really deep and I successfully integrated a lot of the solipsism stuff and kind of got over, gotten over it personally.

But still, there was something in the back of my mind that was always bugging me about that.

Like I couldn't quite put my finger on it but there was something there like I could tell

that there was more to be revealed.

And so I started really wondering, okay, like, what could be missing?

What could I be missing? Let me try to disprove my deepest awakenings as best as I can, not for the sake of anybody else, but just

for my own sake.

Because as I've talked about with self-deception, you know, self-deception is possible, even when your awakening, self-deception is possible in the sense that you can

misinterpret your awakening or you can come back into ordinary life and then have ideas about it that aren't quite right, that sort of thing.

So I wanted to see, the next time I woke, I wanted to see and really like push myself to try to disprove it

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