I didn't just walk away once and for all.

I went in and out.

And there would be seasons where I was all in, lighting the candles, pulling the cards,

meditating, journaling, noticing every single little synchronicity, every 4-4, right?

Which I love to do.

And then feeling like the universe was speaking directly to me through songs and numbers and dreams and little encounters with strangers. It was beautiful and I love synchronicities.

I'd feel anchored, held like I was finally in rhythm with life again.

And then there would be other seasons where I'd push it all away.

I'd think, nope, this feels tainted, this feels like the same old dogma I left behind,

just dressed up in crystals.

And then in those moments, I couldn't bring myself to do a single ritual.

Stepping out was the only way I could reconnect with what was real for me.

It was a pause that allowed me to say, okay, what's mine here? And what's noise?

Hello, hello, magical friends.

My name is Raquel and welcome to your own magic podcast for the creatives and the curious soul.

Ooh, and if you're listening to this on Magic Monday, don't forget that tonight we have an Aries full moon, which is fiery and bold and all about release.

And Aries energy reminds us to step into our courage and to let go of old fears or frustrations

and to honor that balance between our independence and our relationships.

And so it's a moon that pushes us to move forward with honesty and clarity.

So perhaps you can light a red or orange or white candle if you have one or just any candle,

whatever you have.

And then sit where you can see the moon if you can.

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