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Consider Before Consuming

I Was Losing My Memory and Didn’t Know Why

Consider Before Consuming

Fight the New Drug

Education, Sexuality, Health & Fitness, Social Sciences, Science

4.8779 Ratings

🗓️ 29 April 2026

⏱️ 54 minutes

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Summary

Trigger Warning: This episode includes discussion of sexual abuse and trauma. Listener discretion is advised.

Amanda Stanhope was recently featured in reporting by CNN on drug-facilitated sexual abuse, where she shared her personal story—part of a broader conversation gaining attention after survivors like Gisèle Pelicot helped bring this issue into the spotlight.

What began as an intense relationship quickly shifted. Amanda started experiencing memory loss, confusion, and physical symptoms she couldn’t explain, at one point believing she might be developing Alzheimer’s. Over time, she came to realize she had been being sexually assaulted while unconscious.

In this conversation, Amanda shares how the relationship unfolded, what made the abuse so difficult to recognize in real time, and the challenges she faced in seeking help and reporting what happened. She also speaks to how trauma can show up in the body, and why greater awareness of this kind of abuse is critical.


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0:00.0

Here at Fight the New Drug, we talk a lot about the impact pornography can have on mental health,

0:06.6

relationships, sexual health, and the world around us. And if you've felt that impact personally,

0:12.5

it's important to know this. You're not alone. That's why Relay exists. Relay is an app designed

0:18.6

to give you real support as you work toward lasting change. It connects you

0:22.6

with a small, private group of people who understand what you're going through, people who show up when it matters.

0:28.6

Relay isn't about shame or judgment. It's about accountability, encouragement, and learning how to move

0:33.9

forward together. And if anonymity matters to you, Relay has you covered, no names,

0:39.1

just support. If you're ready to stop doing this alone, try Relay for free today at Ftndd.org

0:46.1

forward slash join Relay. Can I be honest for a second? A lot of people who listen to this podcast

0:52.6

already know they want to quit porn. That's not

0:55.4

the problem. The problem is doing it consistently when no one's watching, when it's difficult,

1:01.0

when it's late, when you're stressed. Instead of just relying on willpower, rely on our friends at Relay.

1:07.5

Relay gives you structure, tools, support, connection. So you're not fighting alone

1:13.6

and starting over every week. If that sounds like what you've been missing, check it out at

1:18.3

FtnD. Amanda shares her experience. whose story was recently featured in a report by CNN on drug-facilitated sexual abuse.

1:46.9

Amanda shares her experience in a relationship where she began to experience memory loss,

1:52.9

confusion, and physical symptoms she couldn't explain at one point believing she might be

1:59.1

developing Alzheimer's. Over time, she came to understand that

2:03.4

she had been being sexually assaulted while unconscious. In this conversation, we talked through

2:09.8

how the relationship began, what made the abuse so difficult to recognize in real time,

2:15.7

and the challenges she faced in seeking help and reporting

2:20.2

what happened. We also discuss how trauma can show up in the body and why awareness of this

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