And by the jerk, I used to blackmail girls when I was under age.

This was 10 years ago, I was between 14 and 16 years old.

This all started with the Facebook invitation for a chat application.

Obviously a lot of creeps, but there were times when you could still find real girls on chat apps.

I met a few girls and women, and that was around the time that I discovered the idea of sharing

and receiving spicy photos on the internet. Many were grown women, keep in mind I was under age,

and that was a huge turn on for me. And I assumed for a lot of guys my age, right?

And I loved it. After a few weeks I met this girl in her 20s asking for a video chat,

so we could have some fun. I loved that experience and I wanted more and more.

Eventually I stopped doing it with her and I started to find new girls that I could have

virtual fun with. I found one, but when things got hot she wanted to stop and left me hanging.

I was frustrated and wanted to go all the way anyways. She kept refusing.

And then I did something I still regret. Since she was using her first and last name in the call,

it was a Skype call at the time. I easily found her Facebook profile, took a screenshot and

told her that if she didn't do what I asked her, I will tell her relatives what we were doing.

I would never have done this. It was just a bluff, but her pain and fear was not.

I remember thinking, she is older than me, and yet she does what I say I love this feeling of

power. God damn it. I hate myself so deeply. I don't see any difference between me and an essay

here. I remember that she said that if she ends herself, it will be my fault. And sometimes

years after the events, I still think about that. I know she didn't do it and yet she could have,

and this realization keeps me up at night. I did this sort of things a few times that year and I

still feel disgusted towards myself as a human being. I wish I could find them today and apologize,

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